Monday, December 05, 2005
Down in the Dumps
Sorry the photos are sie ways. one is of real gum leaves I found lying on the ground the other is of lutradur gum leaves-- which are about 4 times the size of the real.Not quite sure how I will use them yet. They have been foiled which you can't see very well in the photo.
I got notification today that I was not successful in my application for the Barcelona residency. I was hoping against the odds, as I wanted to develop my lace work and there are two excellent museums with lace collections in or close to Barcelona- there is nothing available for me like this in Australia. I must say I am close to tears as I am beginning to wonder just what do you have to do to get accepted?? I know the visuals were good as a magazine recently got back to me about them and said what good quality they were. I also got feedback from Ozco - that supplies the grant- I was ranked 10th in a residency that is hotly contested and there was nothing wrong with my application- yeah great it still means I didn't get it! others that did were Nicola Cerini, Izabella Pluta, Carolyn Eskdale, and Adam Cullen. I suppose, at least one textile artist got selected that's good, but I get so tired of the rejections- it would be nice to have a real upper every now and then.I am also beginning to think that to get one of these you need to be single and without a family, or a man- now there is true blue cynicism for you. I suppose from the outside looking in it looks as if I do have lots of successes but most of them are of my own doing, like creating travelling exhibitions, and are done on shoe string budgets.
So no more work for today- feeling too down in the dumps. Just as well I didn't get the post until this afternoon- at least i got some things done this morning.